Tracy and I were in the 2nd grade and in love. We would pass love notes to each other despite the risk of being sent to the principal’s office. We complimented each other well. She was academic and I was artistic. She would help me with my math and I would help her eat her lunch. We made a great team. Near the end of the school year we learned that my mother was transferring me to a catholic school. It was devastating news, because we had been together since kindergarten. You would think that we would cherish the remainder of our time together. On the contrary, the love notes stopped. No more homework assistance and I was back to eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Worst of all, she broke up with me through a friend. And, when I asked her friend why, she said because I was too black and ugly. I will never forget Tracy for the love we shared and the lessons I learned.



How many of us are living in the city we were born? Or working on the first job we started? Or still with our first love? Transition is a part of growth. We grew and became more responsible when we moved out of Momma's house. Now the Lord said to Abram,

“Go forth from your country,

And from your relatives

And from your father’s house,

To the land which I will show you;

And I will make you a great nation,

And I will bless you,

And make your name great;

And so [b]you shall be a blessing;

And I will bless those who bless you,

And the one who curses you I will curse.

And in you all the families of the earth will be blessed.”

Genesis 12:1-3

Thank God shift happens.



Tracy was hurt because I was transferring to a new school. But, neither of us understood at the time that I needed the discipline and enriched academics offered at St. Thomas Catholic School. I know that she was hurt, because of all things to trump up as the reason for our break up, she chose “too black and ugly”. C’mon now, these traits must have already existed. They don’t change. Not that fast and without surgery. She knew she loved my blackness and my not so cuteness, because she had me all to herself without any competition.


Don't get mad if God permits that someone transitions out of your life. In no way will it offset God's plan for your life. A lot a times God used you both to help each other get further along. Tracy would be much fatter now had I not eaten most of her lunch during those years we were together. Are you further along now than you were when you first met that person? I am. Thank you Atlanta.


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